8/26/2023
I have been blessed with many “ah haaaaaaa” moments on this beautiful journey I am now present for
and they have been wonderful. The more of “me” I let go of, the more of “everything” I can experience, appreciate, and love.
Some weeks ago I was pondering the difference between two concepts of thought regarding feelings, thoughts and actions. I was confused about the two concepts. I always thought, and therefore taught, the concept I had learned which is as follows:
The thoughts create the feelings that cause the actions (acting on the feeling caused by the thoughts)
In studying Buddhism the concept presented is as follows:
The feelings create the thoughts that cause the actions (acting on the thought caused by the feeling).
Until this point, I was under the assumption I could not trust my ‘thinking’. This material I was reading suggested my thoughts were trustworthy! It also suggested actions based on my thoughts would be sound action.
Now what?
I really could not think my way out of this conflict in my belief system that now existed. So I did what I do in these moments…I took it to meditation and I asked Spirit for guidance.
This is the essence of what was brought to my awareness.
I have lived from my mind
Buddah lives from his heart
I understood, immediately. I wept.
Most of my life I’ve lived from my head, that is to say, from my mind, that is to say, from my will. I had lived in fight or flight mode, grasping for comfort, avoiding pain, seeking security exernally. I made decisions based on self, regularly. I saw the world through my coke bottle glasses of injury and reacted to it. Of course I coudn’t trust my own thinking! I was believing a lie, everyday.
Buddah, lived from his heart. Spirit (God) lives there! Budda therefore was living in God’s will. Of course he can trust his feelings! His feelings deliver the right thoughts through which right actions can take place.
Buddah doesn’t react he responds.
Grateful.
Brenda H
