Defeated

It had been another rough week.  I was still short fused, disconnected, lonely, and unmotivated.

Unlike my normal bubbly, connected, alive, self.

“What’s wrong?” I thought.  “This isn’t like me. I’m off.  I’m not myself.”

Am I losing my connection?

I know that’s not even possible but I can’t remember the last time I felt this low.

Why? My life is wonderful! I don’t understand.  Defeated.

I slumped onto the couch, bewildered, frustrated, agitated, and disappointed.

It was as if something had sucked the life right out of me!

I put my hand over my heart.

I breathed deeply, once, twice, a third time.

I could feel the energy of love and light emanating from within.

I could feel my heart beating in my hand, in my hand!

My eyes filled with tears.

Grateful.

Connected.

Alive.

Then Universe reminded me what I recently learned in a transformative class

        “Just like a flower, when you’re not blooming, you’re growing!” – TB

A great healing then took place, as it always does in these vulnerable moments.

Experience your pain, your loss, and your loneliness, to the fullest for they are…grand teachers.

Brenda H